Factors to consider before walking out of marriage with a Newborn



Hello, dear readers! Today, I am here to share my wild and wacky escapades following my bold decision to walk out of my marriage when my baby was a mere five months old. Spoiler alert: I relocated from Shanghai to good old Sweden and did it all solo. Ah, the sweet aroma of freedom—or was that just last night’s takeout?  

Anyway, let’s get down to business. If you find yourself contemplating a dramatic exit, heed these quirky factors to consider:

 1. The Diaper Dilemma

Seriously, who knew a tiny human could produce that much waste? When you’re on the verge of walking out, take a moment to think about your new relationship with diapers. Will you be carting bags of baby booty bombs through the airport? Do you really want to take that baggage (pun completely intended) with you?  

 2. Relocation Realities

Picture this: I stepped off the plane in Sweden with one eye on the baby carrier and the other on a giant IKEA catalog. Relocating isn’t just about moving your home; you must also navigate adjusting to a new culture, language and unbelievably confusing street signs. I mean, who doesn’t love a good existential crisis on a Tuesday afternoon?  

3. Family Support 

I was fresh out of the Shanghai bubble, having left my family in Kenya while I settled back into life in Sweden. It’s like binge-watching a soap opera from across the globe. When considering your exit strategy, weigh how family dynamics (or lack thereof) will affect you. A supportive family can be a lifeline, especially when you are knee-deep in milk spit-up and sleep deprivation.  

LIFE POST SEPARATION

4. Career 

While the baby needed a nap, I was deep in my own recruitment process. Sending out resumes felt like Tinder for jobs. Swipe right for opportunities! 

 5. Daycare Fears

DFS (Daycare Fumbling Syndrome) is real. With my little one gearing up to start daycare in mid-February, I was equally excited and terrified. Leaving your baby with strangers? Yeah, that’s its own kind of high-stakes drama. It requires planning, research and a hefty supply of comforting articles about attachment parenting. Who knew the daycare world could rival Game of Thrones?  

 6. The Guilt Factor

Let’s talk about guilt. It’s like a tagalong shadow that whispers toxic thoughts into your ear: “Are you doing the right thing?” “Should you be leaving?” “Did you remember to pack enough diapers?” Learning how to navigate guilt is a perfect blend of personal therapy and wine nights with friends, as they reinforce that you’re totally justified in your choices—even if you’re questioning them every five minutes!  

So before you toss that wedding ring into the ocean, perhaps take a breath and consider these quirky yet important factors. Life with a newborn is like a rollercoaster: thrilling, terrifying and at times, nauseating. But don’t forget—every twist and turn is an adventure of its own. Whether you choose to stay or go, just know you’re stronger than you think and courage never goes out of style.  


Until next time, happy adventuring!

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